Be there for me.  I’m over it.  I am tired of being the one who fucks everything up.  I no longer want to drag down moods because I feel crappy.  How I feel matters no longer.  A smile on my face and a laugh is all anyone needs to make it though the days anymore.  I just need a friend.  tell me you care.  I can’t last any longer. 

Welp… I get to go to the Taste of Chaos tour Sunday…. Woopy right.  I’m guessing sara is taking us. No problems there.  Just hope I can get a little time with my friends.  All I need is to have fun.  Maybe I’ll meet someone cool.  Who knows… I’m willing to make a good time out of it. 

I guess I’ll go in bed and attempt to sleep because you swear that sleep will do me good.  I hope your right, because I’m tired of being a walking open wound.  This headcase has retired from her ways…. Back to the old me.  As long as you can help me, because I can’t quite remember who that person was… =/  I’m sorry.

These Broken hearts will sleep tonight

My nerves are shot all to hell….  I have done my best to smile through my days and be happy.  Hard to do when I’m constantly hurting someone, or pissing someone off.  I’m tired of the cards I’ve been dealt in my life, and I don’t know where I’m going anymore.  If for one little second you ever thought I didn’t care, I’m sorry, because for that second of thinking that… I cared about you 20 times more than you thought.  That’s what hurts the most, when all the people you ever cared about never cared about you back.

I am giving everyone their space from now on.  Its their choice whether or not we talk at all anymore, because I have grown too attached to so many people that just…. Don’t want me there anymore.  So its all your choice anymore, because I’m not going to beat myself up wondering if you care about me or if you just deal with me just because. 

Well…. I wanted to go to Supercross on Saturday night.  Didn’t get too.  Haven’t ever even gotten to go, although for the past 4 years I’ve begged for a ticket. =(  Kinda sucks, but o well.  Instead my mom picked me up from Brittany’s and she took me up to the mall.  Got a shirt from Buckle.  Its green, supposedly green is my color or some crap like that.  I didn’t think I had a specific color that looked good on me.  Hmm….  Got my dad the guns n’ roses greatest hits cd and the Larry the Cable guy dvd.. He had a good birthday.   We went to Crestwood cause he wanted a thing from a food place there… saw steven in the arcade.  Talked to him for a few minutes til, he got in trouble.  He told me he wanted me to call him sometime soon. Dunno if I will.  Not sure if its even worth it.  O well.

I guess I’m gonna go now.  I’ll talk to you later.  Bye everyone.

   

http://www.comclub.org/lj/fsquiz.php">Take this quiz</a> Seriously you guys should do that… I’m not lying to you, it matched up with what I was thinking perfectly and its crazy that it did that.  So go take it now, cause it was actually really cool.

Just throw it back, for one more night
On a starlit and moon-struck night.
The ground did fold and eat us both
But all my love, I did devote.

Beneath the rafters the angels sing
Spinning violence and playing with my heart.

The song I wrote, it was for you.
To live inside of me, I'm dying inside you.

Lost inside another crash
The bones I had, turned into ash.
The world did cry, the night you died
And I am no good at suicide.

But I lost what was mine, and I want what was mine.

My heart now it always breaks, the blood did drip and I did take,
another wish, another kiss, no more will for me to kill.
We'd run away in our dismay, but please, come back to me.

I feel like dying.......

Heavy shovels dug up my grave,

Tonight I  will lay down and rest in the cold earth.

Rot away to feel hollow inside-

You make sure how I feel now, is how I’ll feel ((forever))

©JMH

Well, took some new pictures like an hour ago.  Thought I’d post some of them up here.  Hope ya like em’!  I’m so hott! Lol. w/e

I got nothing so… I’m prolly gonna post more icons lol.  Night all xoxo

 aww..want someone 2 love me lol

  lol

Watched me burn to nothing but ashes-

In the silence of this grey February night.

Cut a sliver of my heart out…

To place in my collage of memories---

Useless and i.n.c.o.m.p.l.e.t.e,

Screaming for nothing more than a heart to come home to.

I will watch you fall away

Because I know you want nothing but the best

---and that was never [me]---

©JMH

Wow…  I don’t know what to say on here anymore.  =/  I’m sorry to anyone who reads this.  I just keep posting icons that I relate too..  It’s the only thing I can think of.  O well.  Heres some more for now though. bye bye

Lay your head on my pillow. Here you can be yourself. No one has to know what you're feeling. No one but ME and Y0U. <3